I'm going to be romantic and a bit lame tonight instead of whatever I've been on here up until now.
I've been (slowly) reading a book called
SHANTARAM by Gregory David Roberts since I was in the airport in Singapore in August eating McDonald's breakfast (scold me all you like, I really don't mind). The website ruins it a bit because it's so terrible and because I just found out that it's going to be made into a movie starring Johnny "Assface" Depp (whom some have said I look like until they meet me and realize that I'm just good at lighting and that I look more like a gingleberry-turtle than a star).
Nonetheless, there are some really nice quotes in the book that got me, such as these:
"Other women cry hard, and all the loveliness in them collapses in the agony of it."
"Someone told me once that if you make your heart into a weapon, you always end up using it on yourself." (This is my downfall).
"...men reveal what they
think when they look away, and what they
feel when they hesitate."
"There is nothing so depressing as good advice..."
"For all his wisdom, he did not know that love cannot be tested. Honesty can be tested, and loyalty. But there is no test for love. Love goes on forever, once it begins, even if we come to hate the one we love."
"
The wrong thing, for the right reasons."
This post is the wrong thing for the right reasons, and sometimes I like being wrong. (For more on the wrong thing for the right reasons, check out the
BEST FRIENDS FOREVER episode of South Park (full episode streams in new window when you click).
So now that the spell that was cast over me this week by the shocking first glimpse of the long dark winter ahead has nearly lifted, and now that democrats are taking back the United States, and Rumsfeld has Rums-fled, I feel myself getting back to my dancefloor side after a few dark days (a few dark days is not so bad, all things told).
I'm beginning to understand the contradictions of who I am versus who I want to be (not to mention how I want you all to think of me). I made up this quote, which you can quote me on:
"You can be everything, even if it all conflicts. You could be The Bible and somebody would still have faith in you."
That said, I've never been to church.
(Here are some more quotes from the book):
"...every virtuous act is inspired by a dark secret."
"We can deny the past, but we can't escape its torment because the past is a speaking shadow that keeps pace with the truth of what we are, step for step, until we die."
"The simple fact is that fighting to save a life is a better and more enduring reason than fighting to end one."
"...
if we all learned what we should learn, the first time round, we wouldn't need love at all."
"...I also agree with Winston Churchill, who once defined a fanatic as someone who
won't change his mind and
can't change the subject."
"At first, when we truly love someone, our greatest fear is that the loved one will stop loving us. What we should fear and dread, of course, is that we won't stop loving them, even after they're dead and gone. For I still love you with the whole of my heart, Prabaker. I still love you. And sometimes, my friend, the love that I have, and can't give to you, crushes the breath from my chest. Sometimes, even now, my heart is drowning in a sorrow that has no stars without you, and no laughter, and no sleep."Labels: BOOKS MOVIES AND OTHER CULTURALISTICALITIES, DESPERATE AND SAD